no

 

no

please god no

no

please god no

 

dont tell this is my life again

dont tell me that my baby is dead

i wake up once more hope its a dream

but i find i am caught in this reality

 

no, please, god. no

 

i wont take opium like 'it's meant to be'

this is human error, this reality

not divine and no more i shine

i am a piece of shit now

i often hope to die

 

destruction lies within death's wake

i am trapped behind this rage again

stuck in despair and i just don't care

and i scream to get me out of here

and yet awake again today

it seems my mind has no more to say

dead she is gone she's stolen from me

and anger hate is all we see

destruction comes behind death's wake

when innocent life was in the take

 

 

no

no

please god no

no, please god no

 

no, please god no

 

wake up once again it is real

i watch us die and lose our feelings

watch us tear eachother to pieces

watch us destroy everything

 

i watch her scream i watch her bleed

it's af something inside my has this need

some reaction to her rips and shreds

i cannot cope with this murder death

 

and in anger we both lash out

so violently we thrash about shout

and tomorrow i will wake up to this again

life and love gone child is dead

 

you brought destruction to this dream

end creation with the silent scream

sometimes in dreams i can escape

but death returns with every new day

 

maybe you can wake up each day

maybe you can smile

maybe you can dance and laugh play

maybe you are just in denial

(me? might take a while, if ever)

 

wake up again yet another day

this is my movie, this is my play

child is dead and love is gone

it is all i know now, can i carry on?

 

-starwhisp 20 jun 2006

 

 

cant feel my fingers cant feel my toes

cant feel anything it grows, yeah

numbness is the only way

to keep on walking every day

frozen ice my heart is gone

it died with my daughter or son

a piece of us quite literally killed, taken

we died then

we will never awaken

 

no

please god,

no

 

 and no matter what i dream or do

this nightmare reality it is true

 

-starwhisp 29 jun 06