p.s.
there is a void
a blackened void
a void of dark confusion
is inside of me
a paranoid
a schizoid
a paranoid delusional
insanity
and in my mind in front of me
everyone and everything is against me
little secret conspiracies
going-ons behind the place my eyes can see
every face that is a smile
it is a front done simply to pacify me
some sort of plot
why? i forgot
but for some reason somewhere they do not like me
there is a dark
a starless void
a black hole that will suck me in
and spit me out
and take my light
insanity
and it is only my mind
going round and about
they love me so
but oh alack
oh really they are all laughing behind my back
to them a fool
they jeer at me
and that is the reason
that they stare at me
when i look back
at things again
tho i do not remember
this happening then
i see the truth
i see the light
the things that happened then
that were outta my sight
but then i see
oh yeah i find
i see the darkened shadows
are standing behind
and all around
about they hide
waiting silently
to take me to their sides
oh such a trap!
but here's the out
all of this is nothing more
than darkened doubt
a fear you see
inside of me
growing out of secret
insecurity
oh what a laugh
a silly thing
even if twas so
who cares a ding-a-ling?
this mad perceive
just a bunch of shit
and i do not believe
any of it
take the dark
flip it around
do you see the smiles
where you thought were frowns?
compliments
about your character
look a little closer
and you will be sure
i care no more
i am free you see
open to admit
just what is all of me
the bad and good
the be and could
you open it all
and i now reveal it
the mad and sane
colour and plain
when you are here
i wish to only feel it
i'm mad no more
open the door
the only madness is
staying within the mind
so fuck it all
i do not give a shit
i love you dear
there is no why
chameleon